i gt back my results le.. hmm actually seriously speaking im not excited at all to get back my results... it is always something that i don wan to face... the bad results..
well.. as for this time round... same thing again.. out of 3 modules i fail 1.. wat to say... i donnoe.. wat to do.. i really donnoe... when i first noe the news i wasnt too upset, but when i really awaken for my slp.. then i really start to feel the stress n depression.. classmates and friends around me are doing good n doing well.. left me me.. i suddenly felt, is it i m too stupid to study wif the rest of them.. quitting my job n going back to study is it a good choice? or is it the right choice?
after this exam, i really felt damn depress n disappointed in myself.. i din tell my mum about the extra fees.. actually, i jus feel sad n disappointed but i din really cry until nw.. when i decided to write hw hw i m feeling then i really cry out..
i feel so sad because i fail is not only the results, i had promise my big sis n my mum tt i will do well in my studies but now i kind of let down my mum... actually i din tell my mum about the retaking need $1700 extra... then i keep thinking... even if i retake this time will i be sure tt i wont need to retake another time... hw sure can i be? i donnoe... i only talk to my 2nd sis.. she told me nt to be discourage.. but i m so upset over it.. hmmm.. so i keep sitting down alone at my rm thinking abt it..
i tink i would continue this 2nd sem n if i fail another module again.. i guess.. i wont continue... i also wont retake anything le.. guess studying really not my cup of tea... i really don wan my family to keep paying more n more $$ for me.. the useless me..
but i tell myself.. this time round really mus chiong all the way.. cannot disapoint anyone le.. i hope i can do it.. seriously..
thanks wendy suling n all for ur concern..
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